2/30: Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

1. Clowns. 

My brother doesn't like them and when I was younger I wanted to copy everything he did 

so I think that's how it started. 

Today, it is a full fledged - I can't look at them/Do not let it talk to me/Do not let it look at me/Definitely do not let it touch me or I WILL start crying - fear. 

2. My husband or parents (or myself) getting alzheimer's. 

I can't explain how much the thought of this scares me. 

It would just hurt so bad to not be known/recognized by who you love the most. 

3. Anything creepy crawly that is FAST or can jump. 

Such as spiders and unidentifiable insects. 

I think it really became a fear after I was cleaning banana leaves off and next thing I knew I felt a BIG 

'ol banana spider [Google it! Imagine the biggest one you see being on your leg.] crawling up my leg. Or maybe after I stepped on a spider and a million [I'm not kidding, I really think there were a million] little babies went in every single direction. 

The thought of them crawling up my legs. Ew. 

Although if I am with someone who also fears these crawling creatures, 

I can woman up and be the one to catch/kill it. Grosses me out if it's crunchy though.

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